"Wisest is she who knows she does not know."
- Jostein Gaarder (Sophie's World)

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Summer

When i first started applying for summer programs, i was set on going to YSP. and i also applied to SSTP because it seemed like a good program too, but not as prestigious as YSP.
If i got into both, i would choose YSP.
i got into SSTP. i got wait-listed for YSP.
they asked if i wanted to stay on the waiting list for YSP, and i haven't emailed them back yet. i was just going ask if i could stay there til may 25th or so, but i might just ask them to keep me there, and if i get accepted, just decline. thing is, there's not that good of a chance i'll get in.
however, in light of recent events, i don't think i really want to go to YSP. no offense, but mostly because my friends are going and i'll already know people there.
SSTP i'll get a clean start. no one will know me, and i won't know anyone (that i know of yet). the idea feels refreshing to me. it's not that i hate my friends or anything, it's that it's nice to have a clean slate with people. new friends, new perceptions; you can create what people can perceive you as.
also, if i'm having a good enough time with the people there, that i'm with, i don't really want to think about anything else. that's a nice feeling too. i usually don't like change too much, but right now, it's almost perfect. (of course, there's always the possibility of me hating it and wanting to keep in contact with you guys the entire time.. but i hope that's not the case.)

the other factor is, YSP is more known. it seems a little more prestigious to be accepted into. if i'm allowed in, it would be more highly looked upon than SSTP, it seems. and also, it's what i've been hoping to get into since last year. (although i think mrs brumage sent in my 10th grade PSAT scores rather than my 11th grade ones. and my 11th grade ones were 30 points higher than 10th grade. yeah, biiig difference. oh well though)

that's why i'll just go ahead and do SSTP. i still want to know if i could get into YSP though. But, they seem like similar programs, and i feel i can get more out of the "residential" part with SSTP. might even be better for me.

i really hope this summer is good. last one kinda sucked. also hope i have at least some rest time in there. (apart from lit required reading and starting to look at colleges...)

Saturday, May 05, 2007

stress

i had stress up until the ACT.
then i had a week. that week was pretty nice.
then state. which was fun.
and then school work slapped me hard in the face.
the tuesday i got back, i had a lot of work to make up, and so i stayed up that night. but then wednesday, i had just about the same work load. and that was regular homework.
from then on i've had pretty much that same work load.
last week, i definitely didn't go to bed before 11. i worked on that friday night and saturday morning, before prom. i worked the entire day on sunday on my spanish project and then acids and bases APEX.
this past week, i have worked constantly from a little after getting home until 12. with breaks for dance and dinner. one night i didn't even eat dinner because i forgot to make myself some.
this morning i took SAT IIs, math and chemistry. i answered all on math, but i only had time to check over like 1/2 the ones i wasn't sure about. so, i don't know about that one. i was unsure on more of the chemistry ones :-\. and those i had to think more on, so i didn't get to go back and check as many as i wanted to, and i had more i was unsure about so.. plus, i don't know if i answered all of them. :-\
i'm hoping for at least in the 700's in both..

next week starts AP exams. Stat is on tuesday and Calc's on wednesday. tomorrow will be devoted to both of them. especially calc because the only review we've had is that cumulative review. and i didn't get some of the questions on there, so i think i'm going to go back over that. and then do those stat FRQs and review conditions, definitions, probability and such for stat.
today i hope to start on my lang study book. that's in a week and 1/2, i haven't cracked my book yet and it's probably the test i need the most studying on (and the hardest to study for).
after calc, that wednesday night, i'm going to start on psych cards and continue my lang. then on thursday night i'll pick back up on my studying for chem and do those 15 questions and such.
chem and psych are on tuesday. lang is on wed.
that wednesday night is MAO awards night. so that'll be a nice break, relax, night.
that thursday i want to go to the beach and just not be in school.
that friday, the 18th, is my dance rehearsal. we have to be at Ruby Diamond by like 3. with our costumes and hair done and they prefer our makeup done, but not required. we get out of school at 2:50. wtf?!
Recital saturday at Ruby Diamond: 11:00
Recital saturday at Ruby Diamnod: 2:00
Recital sunday at Ruby Diamond: 2:00
saturday shows are the little kids and i still 4 times in each.
sunday is the high schoolers and i dance 5 times.
so now you have 3 chances to watch! (but come to the sunday show if you can.)
and i am inviting you guys, so please come. i'm not begging you to, but it would be nice. (again, come to the sunday show if you can)

then. i get 2 weeks.
to study.
i take the SAT again on June 2 and i really hope to be done with it by then. get a high enough score that i'm pleased with, and finish taking it.
i then have a week to relax. enjoy
and then June 10th i start UF SSTP. although i hope to go down a couple days before and buy food and stuff.
and i'm there until July 28.
i have 3 weeks of summer to myself then. but will be doing school work and probably starting college applications.

...and then school starts. lol.
yay busy-ness! lol